These first two weeks of summer have been completely different for me. I spent most of the first week hanging out by myself at the house and most of this week with other people. It all started Sunday with my very first game of golf. I've always wanted to give it a shot but never really had the chance to. I found out it is pretty tough and I would like to give it another shot, but first I need some practice on the driving range. My week continued with a day on the Severn river the next day. I had a blast definitely more fun than last year even though we didn't stay the night. I was a little worried about the expectations I had, but more on that latter. Tuesday Micheal came over so we could study together for out make up Finals. It was nice to hang out with him, I wish the circumstances would of been different, my parents wouldn't really let us do anything except study. The fun continued after our tests Wednesday morning. We got to go hang out at the Mercers for a few hours, I got to eat some delicious grilled cheese sandwiches. That night I helped hand out door hangers for vacation bible school. The activity finally ended there, and so far today I haven't done much of anything but I am going to see what I can do about that.
Camp is coming up in a couple of days, and I have to admit that I am very excited but at the same time do not want to be. This will only be my third year of camp and I am definitely looking forward to it more than any other year before. The first year I was excited but really didn't know what to expect, I had fun but didn't really enjoy myself all that much. Last year I wasn't really that excited about going the year before wasn't that great for me. I ended up having a blast, I was finally starting to get comfortable around everyone and it took me less than two years! So that brings us to this year, and I am very excited and I know it will be loads of fun. These high expectations are scarring me.
An expectation is what you expect to happen, they can be high or low, good or bad. I have had some bad experiences with expectation in the past and that is why I am hesitant about having them good or bad. Having high expectations about something can lead to disappointment if the expectations are not met. Even if you did have fun the fact that you set expectations that did not get met can ruin it for you. I had some good and some bad expectations for this years summer splash. The good expectation was met and the bad expectation never happened and turned out to be good, that is why I can say that I had such a great time. With camp it is the same deal, I don't want to set myself up for disappointment by expecting to much. The thing with expectations are when something happens once you expect it to happen every time but that doesn't always happen. You never can expect how someone will react to every situation.
When making expectations, expect the possibility of disappointment either in a good or bad way.
J-U-ICE
Friday, June 29, 2007
Friday, June 22, 2007
Mowing The Lawn
Well I have been spending this week chillin' at home, is nice to get some time to relax and not have much to worry about or anything to do. I am ready to go out there and do something, be around people, and have fun. Which is exactly what I plan to do, go and see a movie here in a little bit. I have had a lot of time to do some reading. The last couple of months I haven't really read that much. This week however I rekindled my love and have stayed up till 2 a.m. reading on multiple nights. A good book is so hard to put down it takes you into a whole new world, which for me is in some made up place as I am a fan of fantasy novels. Speaking of fantasy novels; I am really getting excited for the seventh Harry Potter book to come next month, and the special effects in the new movie look pretty sweet. Enough about books.
For me the best time to do some serious meditation is while mowing the lawn. I got a chance to do that the other day and I really enjoyed it. There is something about being outside going around in circles for a few hours that really lets the body relax and the mind wander. Some of my biggest decisions and realizations have been made while mowing.
Something that really intrests me are people, their actions, reasoning, who they choose to be, how they act, their motives everything. If you really take the time to consider someones actions besides you will find your self lost in a web of if's and what if's. As one of my least favorite teachers used to say "If frogs had wings, they wouldn't bump their butts when they bounced." Seriously it is hard enough to try and figure out your own motivies sometimes, because to do that you have to be completely honest with yourself and if you are honest with yourself you realize you aren't the type of person that you want to be or you want people to see you as. So often people hide their true intentions under some alternative intention. Deep down they really know what they want and no matter how much they try to cover it up it is still there. If that doesn't give you enough to think about here is some more. You cannot understand another person fully through their actions and words. For ages people have been working on ways to decieve each other. You may be able to tell true deception such as lies and trickery but not things that are the truth. By that I mean what someone tells you may have a completely different meaning than how you precieved. This can be for a number of reasons; complete misunderstadings, you may not have the perspective the other person has, or the situation may be different for you compared to the other person. A combination of all is also completely possible. Knowing what people intend to do or what they mean or even how they feel is sometimes hard to tell. My advice is to not read to much into things but make sure you read the bold print.
Feel free to disagree with anything I just wrote, or just let me know what you think about it, or add to it. Sorry if their are any type o's, spell check will not work for me.
For me the best time to do some serious meditation is while mowing the lawn. I got a chance to do that the other day and I really enjoyed it. There is something about being outside going around in circles for a few hours that really lets the body relax and the mind wander. Some of my biggest decisions and realizations have been made while mowing.
Something that really intrests me are people, their actions, reasoning, who they choose to be, how they act, their motives everything. If you really take the time to consider someones actions besides you will find your self lost in a web of if's and what if's. As one of my least favorite teachers used to say "If frogs had wings, they wouldn't bump their butts when they bounced." Seriously it is hard enough to try and figure out your own motivies sometimes, because to do that you have to be completely honest with yourself and if you are honest with yourself you realize you aren't the type of person that you want to be or you want people to see you as. So often people hide their true intentions under some alternative intention. Deep down they really know what they want and no matter how much they try to cover it up it is still there. If that doesn't give you enough to think about here is some more. You cannot understand another person fully through their actions and words. For ages people have been working on ways to decieve each other. You may be able to tell true deception such as lies and trickery but not things that are the truth. By that I mean what someone tells you may have a completely different meaning than how you precieved. This can be for a number of reasons; complete misunderstadings, you may not have the perspective the other person has, or the situation may be different for you compared to the other person. A combination of all is also completely possible. Knowing what people intend to do or what they mean or even how they feel is sometimes hard to tell. My advice is to not read to much into things but make sure you read the bold print.
Feel free to disagree with anything I just wrote, or just let me know what you think about it, or add to it. Sorry if their are any type o's, spell check will not work for me.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
To Colorado And Back
A new post is finally here, I had meant to write another blog before set out on my adventure in Colorado, but alas it didn't work. I would say City Reach 08 was a success, while there I believe a total of 50 people came to know Jesus as their lord and savior. I also believe that most of the impact that was done on the city of Colorado will not be evident till latter. A lot of people saw what we were doing for their city and community. They may not have made the decision while we were there but what we did may lead them to begin saved in the future. I think a lot of people within the City Reach group were impacted by the preaching of Brother Chad Graves. He did a great job of delivering some very powerful messages that were said in a way that was easy to understand, but heart piercing enough to be long lasting in the eyes of those who were listening.
The theme of this blog is all about perspective and how it effects how you live your life. I came away from city reach with some new perspectives on some things in life and realized a few things about myself, others, and maybe people in general.
One thing I feel that I learned a lot about or experienced was communicating with others and how delicate of a process it can be or in some cases isn't. You have to make sure that you really know the person that you communicate with, so you know how far to take a joke or how much they may be joking with you. I am usually pretty good with this, knowing when someone is joking with me and understanding how far I can go with a joke. It is however a lot harder with some people than it is with others. Things may be an obvious joke to you but others don't see it that way or vice versa. What is really frustrating is when this happens to someone who you used to be able to read and they could read you pretty well also. I believe that this is a sign of both people not knowing what to expect from the other, that is how the confusion starts kicking in. I believe that something like this can be caused by tension or strain.
I am happy to say that I think my sister is finally back to normal, which is a huge relief for me. For you who don't know I missed my sister dearly while at City Reach even though she was in Colorado with me. She is one of my best friends and it was hard for me to see her but not be able to be her friend while in Colorado. This is can be said for others at times. Now that we are back in Maryland we have started laughing and talking a lot like old times. That was one of the few things that I didn't like about Colorado.
Summer is finally here, I just have some make-up exams to take on June 27th and my 11th grade year of high school will be over. I am almost ready for summer, there are still a few that I would like to do before I can be in that fun loving summer attitude. I have some high expectations for this summer, I can drive, I will have some income, and have made some new friends over the year that I hope to be able to hang with. There are also some friendships that I hope can be strengthened over the summer. Last summer was at times the best ever, I hope put an entirely good summer together or at least as improve upon last year.
That is all I have for now, I thought for sure that I had more to write but right now none comes to mind. Fear not I plan to write again soon.
The theme of this blog is all about perspective and how it effects how you live your life. I came away from city reach with some new perspectives on some things in life and realized a few things about myself, others, and maybe people in general.
One thing I feel that I learned a lot about or experienced was communicating with others and how delicate of a process it can be or in some cases isn't. You have to make sure that you really know the person that you communicate with, so you know how far to take a joke or how much they may be joking with you. I am usually pretty good with this, knowing when someone is joking with me and understanding how far I can go with a joke. It is however a lot harder with some people than it is with others. Things may be an obvious joke to you but others don't see it that way or vice versa. What is really frustrating is when this happens to someone who you used to be able to read and they could read you pretty well also. I believe that this is a sign of both people not knowing what to expect from the other, that is how the confusion starts kicking in. I believe that something like this can be caused by tension or strain.
I am happy to say that I think my sister is finally back to normal, which is a huge relief for me. For you who don't know I missed my sister dearly while at City Reach even though she was in Colorado with me. She is one of my best friends and it was hard for me to see her but not be able to be her friend while in Colorado. This is can be said for others at times. Now that we are back in Maryland we have started laughing and talking a lot like old times. That was one of the few things that I didn't like about Colorado.
Summer is finally here, I just have some make-up exams to take on June 27th and my 11th grade year of high school will be over. I am almost ready for summer, there are still a few that I would like to do before I can be in that fun loving summer attitude. I have some high expectations for this summer, I can drive, I will have some income, and have made some new friends over the year that I hope to be able to hang with. There are also some friendships that I hope can be strengthened over the summer. Last summer was at times the best ever, I hope put an entirely good summer together or at least as improve upon last year.
That is all I have for now, I thought for sure that I had more to write but right now none comes to mind. Fear not I plan to write again soon.
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